Beneath The Skin

” For you created my inmost being; you knit me together in my mother’s womb.” Psalm 139:13
Today, my vision got a little clearer, and I had a lot put into perspective. For years, my husband has been telling me the damaging effects of being in the beauty industry. Yes, he supports me in all that I do, but never encouraged being put in a position of being constantly compared or told that you weren’t quite good enough. I ignored it initially, after all, I was just having fun with it? I never took it seriously enough to let those things get to me.. until it started happening. 

We were never made to live this way.. in constant comparison to each other, but unfortunately, that is what social media and media in general is doing to us! Even if we don’t admit that we fall into this category; subconsciously, we think it, and we feel it to a degree. Growing up, especially in middle school, I was constantly picked on for my appearance. The classic “ginger” jokes if you will. I carried some of that pain with me all through high school, and it was damaging to my relationships. This subconcious critic was slowly destroying my opinion of myself. That should NEVER happen. 

God never created us to be so self centered. Who are we to think we deserve certain titles or positions? I was humbled by this realization today. I always had my husband’s wise words in the back of my mind, questioning me if modeling was a safe bet to place the perception of my self worth. Despite this, I continued pushing forward, but for what? What fulfillment, other than self-centered egoic satisfaction, could modeling possibly give me? This was the moment God’s Spirit softly reminded me; life isn’t, and shouldn’t be about “me, me ,me .” That’s the problem.

     Recently, I have been given opportunities that I thought were going to be somewhat of a “stepping stone,” but God decided to intervene. He lovingly said, “No.” Initially, my ego took it very hard, and I made a few phone calls to vent. I didn’t want to believe that after all my efforts, all the sacrifices, it wasn’t going to work out for me. What I failed to realize, however, is that it will all work out for the good of those who love Christ; it just may be in a way I never expected.

Amazingly, in that moment, something happened, and I was given this strong motivation to share. I decided that I am fed up with being judged, compared, and getting the same message.. “Yeah , you’re good and all, but THIS girl.” No! You don’t get to sum up my worth, or classify me. 
This moment of clarity gave me such serenity! I am so full of peace! I am who I am, and I was created for a purpose; not for self, but for others. All this time, instead of taking it personally, I should have been thanking God! We pray all the time for God to lead, to direct us, and here I have been pouting about the fact that feeding my ego just isn’t working out for me.. Well, maybe that’s because God doesn’t want me to serve self, but to serve others. 
No, I don’t know where to begin, but I know that I am going to continue to let The Spirit speak, direct me, and I will try with all my heart listen and obey this time. Thank you God for this realization.
“I praise you because I am fearfully and wonderfully made; your works are wonderful, I know that full well.” Psalm 139:14


Let God Be Good to You

Isn’t this a wonderful verse? It tells you God is waiting to be good to you. He’s actually looking and longing for an opportunity to show His goodness. He is a God of justice and He desires to make every wrong thing right. But He can only be good to those who are waiting for Him to be good to them, those who believe His promises. 
Are you available? Don’t fall into Satan’s trap of being negative. Don’t believe when he tells you your past is really not past and your future is bleak. Choose to believe God and get ready to receive the wonderful gifts He is waiting to give to you. Go to sleep meditating on this thought: Something good is going to happen to me! 
From the book Ending Your Day Right by Joyce Meyer. Copyright 2004 by Joyce Meyer. Published by FaithWords. All rights reserved.

What does being meek really mean?

In what we call “The Sermon on the Mount,” Jesus outlines some of the traits He wants His followers to display. One of them, possibly the most difficult and most representative of His own character, is meekness.
I often hear people misunderstand the definition of meekness, describing it as shyness or quietness, not wanting to ruffle any feathers. It seems so many Christians embrace a definition like this, believing it’s a sin to ever offend anyone else by speaking up or saying no to a request. Nothing could be further from the truth of Jesus’s teaching.
What He meant by meekness, what He Himself embodied, was self-control in the face of adversity. Gentleness. It’s the idea of wild horses that have been tamed. We see this time and time again in the New Testament, but never more than when He is on the Cross. Imagine the restraint Jesus had to show in order to fulfill His mission. He could have come down unscathed; He could have obliterated His enemies. But He chose obedience. He chose love.
Meekness does not seem to have much value in today’s world. With credit cards, fast food, and social media, people seem more willing than ever to throw off any sense of self-restraint. If I want it I can buy it. If I’m hungry, I can eat within minutes. And on social media I can tell my story to an international audience. We often suffer from consequences we never took the time to consider because we aren’t meek. But we need to be if we want to be blessed. —Gwen Ford Faulkenberry
FAITH STEP: Consider the wild horses in your life that need taming. Don’t make a purchase, send a text, or write a Facebook post today unless you can do it in the name of Jesus. See what blessing a little meekness brings!

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