Beneath The Skin

” For you created my inmost being; you knit me together in my mother’s womb.” Psalm 139:13
Today, my vision got a little clearer, and I had a lot put into perspective. For years, my husband has been telling me the damaging effects of being in the beauty industry. Yes, he supports me in all that I do, but never encouraged being put in a position of being constantly compared or told that you weren’t quite good enough. I ignored it initially, after all, I was just having fun with it? I never took it seriously enough to let those things get to me.. until it started happening. 

We were never made to live this way.. in constant comparison to each other, but unfortunately, that is what social media and media in general is doing to us! Even if we don’t admit that we fall into this category; subconsciously, we think it, and we feel it to a degree. Growing up, especially in middle school, I was constantly picked on for my appearance. The classic “ginger” jokes if you will. I carried some of that pain with me all through high school, and it was damaging to my relationships. This subconcious critic was slowly destroying my opinion of myself. That should NEVER happen. 

God never created us to be so self centered. Who are we to think we deserve certain titles or positions? I was humbled by this realization today. I always had my husband’s wise words in the back of my mind, questioning me if modeling was a safe bet to place the perception of my self worth. Despite this, I continued pushing forward, but for what? What fulfillment, other than self-centered egoic satisfaction, could modeling possibly give me? This was the moment God’s Spirit softly reminded me; life isn’t, and shouldn’t be about “me, me ,me .” That’s the problem.

     Recently, I have been given opportunities that I thought were going to be somewhat of a “stepping stone,” but God decided to intervene. He lovingly said, “No.” Initially, my ego took it very hard, and I made a few phone calls to vent. I didn’t want to believe that after all my efforts, all the sacrifices, it wasn’t going to work out for me. What I failed to realize, however, is that it will all work out for the good of those who love Christ; it just may be in a way I never expected.

Amazingly, in that moment, something happened, and I was given this strong motivation to share. I decided that I am fed up with being judged, compared, and getting the same message.. “Yeah , you’re good and all, but THIS girl.” No! You don’t get to sum up my worth, or classify me. 
This moment of clarity gave me such serenity! I am so full of peace! I am who I am, and I was created for a purpose; not for self, but for others. All this time, instead of taking it personally, I should have been thanking God! We pray all the time for God to lead, to direct us, and here I have been pouting about the fact that feeding my ego just isn’t working out for me.. Well, maybe that’s because God doesn’t want me to serve self, but to serve others. 
No, I don’t know where to begin, but I know that I am going to continue to let The Spirit speak, direct me, and I will try with all my heart listen and obey this time. Thank you God for this realization.
“I praise you because I am fearfully and wonderfully made; your works are wonderful, I know that full well.” Psalm 139:14


Be Fully Satisfied

Be Fully Satisfied 
Many people pursue possessions and awards to satisfy their inner need for contentment. But we can be fully satisfied in lean times and in times of abundance, whether we abase or abound (see Philippians 4:12), when we learn to enjoy fellowship with the Lord as soon as we wake up. 
Before you are fully awake, you can start talking to God. Just thank Him for seeing you through yesterday, and for being with you today. Praise Him for providing for you, and for working out all the situations in your life for your good. 
Ask Him to make you aware of His presence all day long. Peace fills your heart when your mind is on the Lord. Nothing is more satisfying than walking with God. 

From the book Starting Your Day Right by Joyce Meyer. Copyright 2003 by Joyce Meyer. Published by FaithWords. All rights reserved.

Ending your day right By Joyce Meyer

I don’t know about you but I LOVE me some devotionals! I try to read them as much as possible throughout the day. They help me to stay focused on what is TRULY important. If I start to get sidetracked , all I do is pull out my phone and bam, scripture on a screen! It really is awesome. Before I sign out tonight I wanted to share with you my devo before bed! It is from Joyce Meyer and its an app called : ending your day right. Definitely recommended!


*Be Happy*


Blessed (happy, fortunate, to be envied, ) is he who has forgiveness of his transgression continually exercised upon him, whose sin is covered. Blessed is the man to whom the Lord imputes no iniquity and in whose spirit there is no deceit. Psalm 32:1-2


God created you to live the abundant life He died to provide you– and knowing  your sins are completely forgiven should be enough to keep you happy.


But many Christians operate in the works of the flesh trying to serve God. They spend so much time trying to be good they miss the blessing if simple prayer and fellowship with God.


God is not seeking your “works”. He want YOU! You must remind yourself  that you have been made righteous through that death and resurrection off Jesus… and you can add nothing to that.


As a Christian, you are no longer your own– you were purchased by the blood of Jesus. He paid the ultimate price for your happiness, so enjoy it.


on that note, goodnight beautiful!


Good morning Beautiful!

So, every morning when I wake up I start the day with an app that I have called , Jesus Calling by Sarah Young. Somehow it ALWAYS relates to what is going on in my life. Everything starts with God, so I thought I would share today’s devotional for an excellent morning pick me up!

 I am the Prince of Peace. As I said to My disciples, I say to you: Peace be with you. Since I am your constant Companion, My peace is steadfastly with you.When you keep your focus on Me, you experience both My Presence and My Peace . Worship Me as King of kings, Lord of lords, and Prince of Peace.

You need My Peace each moment to accomplish My purposes in your life. Sometimes you are tempted to take shortcuts, in order to reach your goal as quickly as possible. But if the shortcut requires turning your back on My peaceful Presence, you must choose the longer route. Walk with Me along paths of Peace; enjoy the journey in My Presence.

Scripture to go along with the devo:

Isaiah 9:6

–John 20:19-21

–Psalm 25:4